Today is June 4. Forty-three years ago today Scottie and I were married. As the days dew closer to today I wondered how today would be for me. Somewhat to my surprise today has been a beautiful day. I arose after one of the best night's sleep I have had in a long time. And I woke up just feeling good, very good --physically and emotionally. Somehow today was a day of thanksgiving, not regret; a day of remembering good times and of recalling events that were so special to us.
Sure I still get the "blues" from time to time, and I expect I always will. And In a way I hope I always will.
As I said to my daughter today, there is a point at which grief gives way to wonderful memories that you relive and today as I look at the picture on my dresser of her in her wedding dress instead of tears, I feel a warmth and comfort. She now lives joyously among "the angels and the archangels and all the company of heaven" and I am sure she too is thankful for all that we shared together. It seems that while you are grieving you feel separated from one another. But when the time comes and the grief is replaced with thanksgiving you feel re-united; curiously enough, it's not a denial of the loss, but an embracing of it.
I share this in my blog today in the hope that others who suffer the loss of a loved one will know that with the love of those family and friends and angels whom God sends your way a day does come when your grief heals and is replaced with what I have experienced today, and carry with me most days.
June 4--it is a good day!!
Glenn+